Should I Stay or Should I Go?

April 18- April 24

These weeks are picking up speed! I felt like I was just emailing you!

Tuesday the zone leaders had me rebuke the district leaders. They are

getting to chill and should be setting a better example for the

missionaries they have stewardship over. But it went well. The spirit

was strong and they agreed that they needed to change. It's just funny

that they had me do it.

Wednesday I was in Boulder city for exchanges. We ran into a less

active old man while he was sitting on his porch. We asked him if he

had watched the videos on Mormon.org we had left for him and he said

"no". Then we asked "why do you think we invite you to watch theses

videos?". His reply was "well, even the people in hell need ice

water!" Hahaha later he was making fun of the middle school kids as

they walked home. "Now sisters, watch these two young things... Every

once and a while they'll stop to kiss!... Hmm maybe they're not in the

kissy mood today..."

As missionaries if people are unwilling to keep commitments or change

we have to "drop them" or stop visiting them until they are more

prepared. While sister Bedont and I we evaluating the exchange later

that day say said "this sister... She just unwilling to change." I

quickly replied "Drop her!" But I do love the sisters... I promise I

was joking.

I also got rootbeer floats at A&W so that was great!

Thursday we had district council and I gave a training on setting

people with baptismal dates and inviting people to come to church.

Then we went on exchanges. We taught a recent convert about the plan

of salvation but it made me think a lot about repentance. We are

having Elder Holland come and everyone says that when he shakes your

hand he stares into your soul and knows all of your sins. I was

thinking about when he shakes my hand what will he think of me? What

do I want him to think of me? What mistakes will be made known into

him? He is a special witness of Christ as an apostle, and represents

Christ. I want to be completely clean. I want him to see the good not

the bad. I was to have a complete remission of my sins. Is it

possible? Is it possible for me to be complete clean when I shake his

hand? Yes. Through Christ I can be completely clean. I truly believe

it. More than I ever have. When I teach and tell people they can have

their sins washed clean as they are baptized I think about their major

sins and how the burden can be lifted. I don't feel a heavy burden

from my sins but I do know that I make mistakes. I feel like when I

make a mistake it's like a shard of glass in carpet. Hard to get out.

I now fully realize that I can be completely clean. I can receive a

full remission of my sins as I shake Elder Hollands hand and as I

stand at the judgment bar of God. I will feel comfortable in his

presence because I have a desire to be in his presence. No matter the

mistakes I've made my sins can be made as white as snow. I have no

need to be anxious or afraid but I can be forgiven. Because of the

Atonement of our Savior Jesus Christ.

Friday. I don't even remember what happened that day.

All the days are blending together.

Saturday we met with Collin and answered some of his questions. Turns

out he is now dating a girl in our ward. Weird! It seems like everyone

is dating someone now. I need to get out of YSA.

We street contacted a kid who said we have angel eyes and that we were

super nice. He was like 16 and had a faith in Christ but could feel

the difference the spirit makes just by briefly talking with us!

When we finished dinner we saw this guy who was helping his friends

move. We offered to help and the guy happens to be less active. His

friends were non members and so grateful for our help that they

offered to buy us pizza. We couldn't stay and eat with them because we

had to go to a stake standards night and talk about modesty.

I definitely have a testimony of modesty. I was also glad I was with

the Mia Maids and Teachers because I may have known some Laurels... We

had to leave immediately to go to a lesson with Ruby and Sister Snow

came too! Jordan also passed his baptismal interview so he will be

getting baptized this Friday!

This week we have exchanges with sister Koyle, a meeting with the AP

and MSTLs, Temple trip, elder Holland, Baptism. More Holland and

Transfers! Exciting stuff.